DEAR DIARY: I THINK I'M LOOSING MY HOME

Dear Dairy, 

I'm a single mom of three lovely children, I left my previous marriage because we are from two different religious backgrounds.

Before we got married, he was not keen about me going to church and taking our children to church but as time flew it became a very big issue and threat to our marriage.

I have a calling which I have rejected over the years and according to my mum, she said a lot of prophesy came up about me doing the work of God in the church (as a woman of God).

Many years has passed and I have since been tormented by this...this led to me leaving my marriage and we both went seperate ways.

I married another man five years later, who is also a Christian like me.

We got married and we were so inlove with each other, until few months ago, when he lost his business, we have a 6 months old son now, who we can barely feed at the moment.

My husband almost ruined me because he became indebted and I began to help out with the bills, without taking a second thought.

Now, I feel like I'm loosing my home because my husband has refused to take another job ever since, my business is slowly going down the drain, we can barely feed even twice a day.

He's lazing around while he keeps saying he's praying for a breakthrough... 

My question is, who gets a breakthrough without having to work?

I have been tirelessly praying for a miracle but at this point, I think I'm fed up and I don't think I'm in love with him anymore.

The sight of him gradually irritates me now and the fact that I have to feed him daily without him making an attempt on job hunting is disheartening especially because I have to feed and cater for our child and my other children as well .

Please help and keep me anonymous...